”The Pot’s Burning!”
Originally Posted November 28, 2017
Read the previous post here: Not so Black and White: My Family History
The funny thing about life is that no amount of scheduling or planning can prepare you for when things go awry. My mother had this phrase her Nana taught her to say when she was little. ”Nana The Pot’s Burning!”, was code for ”I don’t feel like being bothered.” Or ”I don’t want to talk right now.”
My mother’s Nana wasn’t the type of woman to say those things out right. So my mother would come up with a kitchen emergency to get her off the phone. Then her nana would rush off the phone like it was an emergency. The only thing is, this could only be done a few times to the same person or else they would catch on. Over the week, and even yesterday, I had a series of “Pot Burnings”.
Monday and on into Thursday, I had a moment of realization that I was fighting against my own body. Not just physically, but emotionally and mentally as well. I’ve been sick with a virus for about a week which by itself is okay. But I’ve also been dealing with complications with my Migraines and Occipital Neuralgia.
I don’t discuss all of my health issues, that often because honestly, there are many. While one is being handled, the others are sitting on the shelf. And I don’t want my health to become a “thing” or an “it”. My health is a part of me, sometimes the parts don’t work like they are supposed to.
Planning for Failure
Yesterday, I started planning for the week. After one mishap after another, I realized the day wasn’t going to work out. I wasn’t working correctly and my tech has been acting up. The little bit that I was able to do wore me out.
I was done. And I think that’s an important step to make. It’s okay to accept defeat in a battle as long as you don’t lose the war. With my anxiety and depression, I know myself enough to know I hit my limit. I needed to rest. I needed to de-stress.
Opposite of Join The ME Project
I took yesterday off. At first, I felt bad. I didn’t want to miss a post. Then I realized it didn’t matter if I wasn’t in the right mindset to write it. How could I talk about motivation, encouragement, or wellness if I wasn’t feeling these things?
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Today is better. Today, I’m here to say that it’s okay if the pot has to burn and you have to give up the day for yourself, as long as you don’t give up entirely. Bad days will happen. But good days are around the corner.